我开悟了：我应当从学习本身中获得快乐。
我将不再尝试如何证明自己不弱。
想通了，感觉收获很大！
乏力
不想打算法竞赛了。这是因为有别的事情要做，不是因为我打不动。
不想打比赛凌晨两点才睡了。因为我会困。
不想在群里和高水平选手水群了，因为我想独处。
不想去打区域赛，和ICPC选手多交流什么了，因为感觉中国选手都没几个好好打的。
不想出题了，一是因为我菜，二是因为我没有时间。
不想一年拉着队友训练三百场，因为我更想读读论文。
不想把过多意义投入到比赛中，因为这不是我想看到自己的样子，也不会让我成为我想看到的未来自己的样子。
发点老照片?
“胜利”的定义一开始好像不是很高，但是却从来没有感觉到“胜利”。到现在其实也搞不明白啥是“退役”了，只能说，“差不多得了”？
继续阅读“发点老照片?”杭电多校第六场1006 1007 1008题解，std
题是我出的，std是我写的。1006是原创套路。1008是原创贪心。1007是从CF上的题加强了一下子出的。
继续阅读“杭电多校第六场1006 1007 1008题解，std”挑战程序设计竞赛
经常活在对自己的失望之中，或许真正“挑战程序设计竞赛”一回是唯一的解决办法。
短期目标是打打Codeforces，Google Codejam，Topcoder Open，Atcoder等比赛来源的比赛，总的目的是把自己和理想中的自己距离拉近一些，发挥一下“未发挥的潜力”，并让自己不活在对自己的失望之中。
等到不对自己失望的时候，就“差不多得了”，去投入学习TCS了。但现在，只能说我做不到。。
想法
这个网站应当用中文来写，另外建一个英文网站。这样我可以在这里写各种随机的奇怪言论。
需要有计划地高效学习。
Learning reports, updated daily
The plan:
Finish 15-455 before 2/14[cancelled]
Finish 15-855 before 3/1 3/14
15-855 plan: learn 1 lecture every day till 2/28.
Learn “Computational Discrete Mathematics” parallel to the course
Also, learn “Approximation Algorithms” whenever possible.
Then learn bootcamp, beyond bootcamp and another course.
继续阅读“Learning reports, updated daily”Self learning report, 2021/02/03
Today I was able to finish L4,L5,L6 of the 15-455 course. L5 and L6 slides can be understood effortlessly, perhaps the course isn’t that hard after all.
No homework is done today due to participation in algorithmic competition. I will not participate in algorithmic competition seriously anytime soon. Study comes first.
Best case scenario: 15-455 finished before next Wednesday, 15-855 finished before 3/1. Additional material and papers(?) are learned.
Worst case scenario: 15-455 finished before next Sunday, 15-855 finished 80% before 3/1. No additional materials learned.
Self learning reports will be posted every day before 24:00 to keep me on track.
Self learning report, 2021/02/02
Today I was only able to finish L03 and 2/3 of L04 of 15-455. No homework is done.
This is due to an algorithmic competition which I had to participate. Tomorrow I hope to:
- Finish L04
- Finish the homework.
- Finish L05
- Finish L06 (Not likely as I have to participate in algorithmic competition tomorrow too.)
“Make 1% progress every day for 100 days.” – Ryan O’Donnell
Self learning report, 2021/02/01
I decided to learn http://www.cs.cmu.edu/~15455/ first, before progressing to the graduate course by Ryan O’Donnell.
As I have learned most of the material before, I have plenty reason to believe that I will finish with 15455 soon.
Yet today I found the course to be more difficult than I imagined while doing the first assignment. The course by K. Sutner offers more material than the textbook offers and the course can probably provide me a deeper understanding of the material, so I decided to put effort in it to finish it soon.
I promise myself to never see the solution while attempting the homework. Only when I give up will I see the solution.
Today I learned the first two lectures and finished the first Assignment. I expect to learn more efficiently in the following days.