乏力

不想打算法竞赛了。这是因为有别的事情要做,不是因为我打不动。

不想打比赛凌晨两点才睡了。因为我会困。

不想在群里和高水平选手水群了,因为我想独处。

不想去打区域赛,和ICPC选手多交流什么了,因为感觉中国选手都没几个好好打的。

不想出题了,一是因为我菜,二是因为我没有时间。

不想一年拉着队友训练三百场,因为我更想读读论文。

不想把过多意义投入到比赛中,因为这不是我想看到自己的样子,也不会让我成为我想看到的未来自己的样子。

挑战程序设计竞赛

经常活在对自己的失望之中,或许真正“挑战程序设计竞赛”一回是唯一的解决办法。

短期目标是打打Codeforces,Google Codejam,Topcoder Open,Atcoder等比赛来源的比赛,总的目的是把自己和理想中的自己距离拉近一些,发挥一下“未发挥的潜力”,并让自己不活在对自己的失望之中。

等到不对自己失望的时候,就“差不多得了”,去投入学习TCS了。但现在,只能说我做不到。。

Learning reports, updated daily

The plan:

Finish 15-455 before 2/14[cancelled]

Finish 15-855 before 3/1 3/14

15-855 plan: learn 1 lecture every day till 2/28.

Learn “Computational Discrete Mathematics” parallel to the course

Also, learn “Approximation Algorithms” whenever possible.

Then learn bootcamp, beyond bootcamp and another course.

继续阅读“Learning reports, updated daily”

Self learning report, 2021/02/03

Today I was able to finish L4,L5,L6 of the 15-455 course. L5 and L6 slides can be understood effortlessly, perhaps the course isn’t that hard after all.

No homework is done today due to participation in algorithmic competition. I will not participate in algorithmic competition seriously anytime soon. Study comes first.

Best case scenario: 15-455 finished before next Wednesday, 15-855 finished before 3/1. Additional material and papers(?) are learned.

Worst case scenario: 15-455 finished before next Sunday, 15-855 finished 80% before 3/1. No additional materials learned.

Self learning reports will be posted every day before 24:00 to keep me on track.

Self learning report, 2021/02/02

Today I was only able to finish L03 and 2/3 of L04 of 15-455. No homework is done.

This is due to an algorithmic competition which I had to participate. Tomorrow I hope to:

  1. Finish L04
  2. Finish the homework.
  3. Finish L05
  4. Finish L06 (Not likely as I have to participate in algorithmic competition tomorrow too.)

“Make 1% progress every day for 100 days.” – Ryan O’Donnell

Self learning report, 2021/02/01

I decided to learn http://www.cs.cmu.edu/~15455/ first, before progressing to the graduate course by Ryan O’Donnell.

As I have learned most of the material before, I have plenty reason to believe that I will finish with 15455 soon.

Yet today I found the course to be more difficult than I imagined while doing the first assignment. The course by K. Sutner offers more material than the textbook offers and the course can probably provide me a deeper understanding of the material, so I decided to put effort in it to finish it soon.

I promise myself to never see the solution while attempting the homework. Only when I give up will I see the solution.

Today I learned the first two lectures and finished the first Assignment. I expect to learn more efficiently in the following days.